I love Matt. I love Matt. I love Matt. I AM NEVER LEAVING MY HOUSE WITHOUT HIM!!!!!!!!

I honestly do not see how he is staying with me. but it means so much. I cant believe i almost cheated on him. well i didnt. i wasnt going to. but i cannot believe i did what i did.some one needs to shoot me. i am never drinking again. i never planned ot in the first place but way to say peer pressure! Matt is seriously my everything.

I am tired. have feever of 102.5. can hardly breathe and i only care that he wouldnt dump me. talk about someone really loving me. I will seriously kill ryan or the next one if his friends to tell me i can do so much better than matt because they are fuckign retarded if they think that. i dont even deserve him. he is my life

Thursday~ School and then home to pack up for the bahamas. I went to logan to catch my plane and its two hours delayed. Sweet so m dad asks if our connecting flight from miami to Nassau so they were like yea all flights re late and will be held. well it wasnt. We get there and the plane left!!!! UGh so they tell us to go get our bags and then only one bag is there! not mine. so they say they have to hold onto it for the night. They send us to a hotel without my clothes.

Friday~ yay. so i get up and go to the bahamas. My boat was SUPPOSED to be there the day before but wiht our luck NOPE. its got into an accident and almost sunk. so it would be late too. So we checked in left our bags in the obby and walked around. I was sexually harassed by more people than i could ever imagine. It was nasty. They were nasty. I just wanted matt! so then we go out to get a drink i went dead. I dont do well with alcohol. I passed out for the night.

Saturday~ Beach day!!! although i was wicked BURNT! we went on the water slides and the kid whimping out in front of me was def jesse Mcartney. i went to his concert that night.  I went into this little hotel shop, and  saw the cutest dress i had one like it that i got for like 45 dollars this one was a bit cuter tho. so i aks my dad if i can get it he says depends on the price. Oh so its $4,945 WHO BUYS THAT!?!? its was a tiny peice of fabric. so who walks uo against me put pamela anderson. EW. she picks it up goes oh this is cutte and gets it. wow. i didnt know the storee i was in was versache. dude i can afford anything in there. nothing less that 3,000 dollars come on now. im not famous.

Sunday~ I went shpping downtown and when i went to get my hair braided there were like a billion creepy guys. i was so waiting to be raped. and i got a coach bag for 25 dolars fake of coarse btu it was supposed t be 60 so i did good

Monday~ time to go home! we had lunch went for a ride on the dingy and did a bit more shopping round the hotel. I got a sea turttle...and a martini glass candleand then i went home wiht my entire plan to suprise mattthe next day.

Tuesday~i get to school no matt. where the fuck is he i planned the entire day. but then i hadf a breakdown. and completely fell apart. so they locked me n a office for the day then i get outa school and go to call matt and his dad tells me hes in the hospital. i burst out crying. and called him right away. so i went to visit him he looked so cute i mmissed him soooo much i hadnt seen him in days. aww i love my baby. and now im on the phone being mean cause i dont knwo why btu trying to be nice. and hes peeing because he cant stop. l to the osser just kidding ilove my baby boy. i couldnt ask for anyone better.

[x ] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[x ] I own over 5 rap CDs.(all beastie boys...if that counts)
[x ] I own an iPod or MP3
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic
[x ] I love Disney Movies.
[ x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name. 
[x] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.
[x] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[x] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 7 pills at a time no problem
[x] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[x] I've been out of this country
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play computer games/video games.
[x] Gotten lost in your city.
[x] Saw a star
[ ] I had a serious Surgery
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[x] I have Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ]Been arrested
[x] Laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[x] kissed someone/made out in an elevator
[ ] Swore at your parents
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been close to love
[x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[ ] Skipped school
[x] Flashed someone
[x] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits!
[x] Played spin the bottle
[ ] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour .

[ x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x ] Gotten the chicken pox
[x ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ]Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ]Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[x] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[x] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[x] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[x] Been to Canada
[ x] Been to Mexico
[ x] Been on a plane
[ ]Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[ ] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[x] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been moshing at a rock show
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Done hard
[ x] Taken painkillers
[ x] Had someone cheat on you
[ x] Miss someone right now